You're Frozen when Your Hearts not Open

I feel great.
It's been a long time since i felt something as close to this.
Work is still the same hectic and going in all directions. You could say I am falling apart, my life is falling apart. I am totally burning myself out. But i am happy.

There seems to be way too much of beauty around. I was all set to move on, all i saw was the negativity growing within me, the frustration and anger and nothing to complete the feeling. All this mindless thinking and all this negative energy was somehow making me miserable and kept me rooted... options, something i always prided myself with, seemed to slowly vanish, disappear out of sight. It slowly began to feel like the whole world was closing up and shutting down. Or maybe itwas just me.

Emotions and circumstance where do they lead you? Why does it sometimes happen that you suddenly feel like the whole world has plotted against you and that everything that you are going to do, the outsome seems evident? Kept thinking about it. I could convince myself that it is all fate, light up a few candles and believe that everything is going to e okay, that someone out there will listen to mortal prayers and send forth and angel to lift the soul to a higher plane... donno if that really happens unless you on some really weird acid trip... rather good one...

but maybe there really isn't anything, its just in the head. Think hard. Think really hard. Can you disassociate yourself from yourself? Can you kill yourself?

I just did.

I belive and now i am sure that if you can see yourself from a different perspective a completely different parallel consciousness. Answers seem to flow in. Its when you're frozen that your hearts not open. You need to free them mind. The world seems a whole lot more beautiful and ready for challenges... answers to questions asked before are all out there... Options... something that helps me out are back... and today i dance and dine and drink with them.