ThE DEcidER

Darkness...more darkness
Are my eyes going blind or am I just fading away...
My head's spinning and whirling, my body's aching...
I guess it's the adrenaline, maybe the serotonin...IT'S DOPAMINE...
I can't fight this battle anymore...I have to stop and let go... Let go of the spirit that has bound me.
There is no one here but me... in this crowded and claustrophobic world... I am but alone, fighting a losing war...
I have to let go... leave it all behind...
' Will leave from the back door, should i turn to see the one's I leave behind and lose this only chance to slip away?
Slip out and no one, not even friends would notice i have slipped away and left the warmth of the party...
Open door... The back door...
I can feel the pang of the cold breeze beckon me "leave 'em all behind"
So I let the feeling engulf me and leave without stopping to say goodbye...'
Life is so strange... I stop awhile to wonder ' DID I really LIVE LIFE to LEAVE IT?'
And I was thrown back...with a throbbing head, dry mouth and a very heavy pain on my chest and on every muscle i thought i have...
DID I JUST SEE DEATH...
THE REAPER AND THE DECIDER??!!