Well, for a long time now i have really been contemplating a move that i had ought to have done 6 months ago, and here i am still contemplating. A procrastinator. Lost in world of his own... it was way too obvious where you were going but the man had to be the dude, who'd think that everything goes your way cos he's got the power to change the whole world... the confidence to move a mountain, or at least bore it to death... dry out a sea. all too powerful.
but now convictions seem more like thoughts, disturbing. does it really need to be done. why can't people understand? or am i demanding too much. i would still go with the latter when everything around points to the earlier.
got to move on. life doesn't end...here. I have created a monster in trying to be all so powerful. a monster that is too big for me to handle, and now the same monster is out to get me. but i will be confident the same way i was... smile within, frown from the outside... face the shit and be sure to die.
